During my morning meditation, the angel cards I received were Joy and Expectancy. I began thinking about the word expectancy, which Webster defines as “the state of thinking or hoping that something, especially something pleasant, will happen or be the case.” As I further meditated on the word, I noticed that expectancy and expectations have shared prefixes. Expectation is a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future. Anytime I live in the future, especially in regards to expectations, I am robbed of real-time, right-now joy, which made the two angel cards of Joy and Expectancy very potent signs about a current situation.
I also noticed that expectations can be explicit and implicit. When I have implicit (or unconscious) expectations, my interior emotional landscape becomes vulnerable to the condition or fulfillment of those unstated expectations. I recently found myself in a very deep and intense state of disappointment, resentment, and anger when I realized I had unconscious expectations. When I sifted through my expectations, I noticed that I had unstated needs. So, I did the next logical thing: I took back my personal power and voiced my needs. It was not easy nor was it pleasant as I was coming from a vulnerable place in my heart. Once you state your needs, people (or organizations) can choose to respond…or not. You may have a need, express that need, and receive feedback that the person or organization is not capable of meeting your needs, or even more disheartening, not interested in being in connection with you. When this happens, the sheer disappointment and the loss of hope can be so intense, that you might question the very reason of your existence. And if you stick with the feelings and ride the wave, in one burst of diamond-light, you see that the truth of your existence lies in the freedom of honoring your own worthiness. Quite simply, if your needs are not being met, you gotta take the next logical step and move on. You owe no one an explanation and you are worthy of your needs. We are literally surround by genuine love and compassion and the moment we take ownership for our personal worthiness, the Universe meets us with love and new experiences 10 times greater than the unfulfilled needs.
Last year, I posted this quote and it still rings true in brilliant light:
“Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or loves you” (fyoured.com).
As I walk away from that which no longer honors my heart, I am filled with joyful anticipation. Anticipation that everything will be awesome, and that my genuine needs will be met, honored, and respected.
With love, light, and unlimited joy,
Dianne Hamda